rosebyanyother: ('til you feel nothing at all)
"Morrigan Prince" (Peter Nureyev) ([personal profile] rosebyanyother) wrote in [community profile] elnyan 2018-09-12 11:36 pm (UTC)

I don't think you're giving yourself enough credit.

[His first answer, not entirely linear in the scheme of everything Juno just said. He's digesting it all, but his mind alights on I come, I make a mess, I can't fix it and it's what he decides to address first. It's the easiest, anyway.]

I've done my research, if you'll recall.

[The rest of that is...harder to digest, and Peter takes a little longer to do it. It's not what he expected at all. And yet...

Peter remembers. It's been a very long time since he's felt anything like what Juno is describing. For the most part, Peter fully believes in the vision of the beautiful future he'd spun for Juno. For Peter, at least, good things aren't a trap. They're things that will absolutely come to him, whether they come willingly or with a bit of persuasion. He doesn't stop to think about them very much at all. It's a given.

But there was a time...there was a time when there was a young boy who didn't trust a good thing. Maybe not because he'd ruin it, but because good things didn't happen to little boys who grew up on the streets. Good things were dangerous. And he can see how that's true for Juno. In a way.]


You're right. [His voice is soft again, counterpoint to his words.] If you made that decision to try and protect me, then it was selfish.

[Peter knows that's not all of it, and he knows it isn't that simple. It isn't just that Juno was trying to protect him. On some level, he realizes just how much he was asking of Juno by inviting him on their great adventure.]

But I still want that future. I still believe in it.

[He still wants to "deal" with Juno. And, unspoken: he still loves him.]

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