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ɴᴀᴛʜᴀ orbiters ❰ mod collective ❱ ([personal profile] natha) wrote in [community profile] elnyan2017-08-29 07:08 pm
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❪ test drive: #2 ❫ THE OVERFLOW

ORIGINAL POST



THE PROLOGUE    

Many people in stasis seem to be medically sound enough to wake up, brother. Are the preparations ready to go?



Yes, I've long prepared myself for this. Watching them everyday has been truly rewarding.



... Right. Yeah. Okay, let's get them ready to wake up. We should keep their minds active to ease the transition into consciousness. A simple VR program should do the trick, I think.


I will boot one immediately. There! All systems are green. Their consciousnesses are linked. However, their minds appear to be too active... They may be over-stimulated, brother.



Huh? How can that be...? Can we pull them out safely?


Not from my end, no. This may be too large for us to fix alone. Do you think...?



Yes, I think so... It will have to be done organically. Can you send out a message to our refugees?



Of course, brother. I will send one swiftly. We must be sure to fix this before Darma returns.



There is urgency in the Orbiters' request. Refugees currently in El Nysa are asked via mass message to please return to Thesa Station virtual reality area immediately. Zasere tells them that the next set of Refugees are scheduled to wake, but there's been an issue.

On Thesa, refugees will find that the people in stasis are still apparently trapped in slumber. Most of them are complete strangers, but there's a chance you may recognize a familiar face or two. Normally, these people would wake up from their pods without issue, but due to a malfunction caused by the unforeseen force during The Descent, they have to go through extra measures to make this possible. Those in slumber require extra stimulation, something to keep their minds active. What better than a simulation of an area of El Nysa?

Keeping their minds active requires an extremely involved simulation. Those subjected to the VR (prospective characters) will find themselves completely immersed in their new environment, believing themselves to be native Olympians. To wake up from the simulation, characters must work together to accomplish a certain objective(s) in the icy tundra. Characters in-game will be aware that this is a simulation, but this is good practice for properly interacting with El Nysa natives, isn't it?

An AC-length log thread on this TDM may be submitted for Two (2) Natha REP points HERE. Please read the OOC note at the bottom of this post for the terms.
PROMPT: WINTER CAME    


The wind in the icy wasteland is bitter and frigid. You are wrapped up in a winter coat, but even still, the cold bites at your skin and leaves you yearning for a warm fire. Perhaps you're a merchant from the city, here to make a delivery, or you're a royal guard, sent to patrol the area. Who are you? The sky is the limit. One thing is certain — you won't snap out of your new identity until you finish a task.
1. Due to the vast diversity of the creatures on El Nysa and the fact that new ones are constantly being discovered, an important objective is to carefully chronicle different species. Unfortunately, to research these new species, they happen to need more than just a visual. More than just fleeting glances in over a snowy hill. Researchers are constantly looking for ways to secure...

You guessed it! Blood and stool samples.

The supplies for the former will be given. Supplies are offered in a small box; one per person. In this box is a small dart that will automatically procure a small touch of blood, and easily shaken off so the creature will be able to securely escape. As for the latter— well, they'll give you a plastic bag if that counts. Look, sometimes to get a job done, you have to get your hands dirty.

Specifically, they seek samples from a newly recorded rare beast known as a Klep. Kleps spend much of their time hidden in caves, so hitting them with the darts will be tricky. They are also nocturnal, but you may be able to lure them out of the cave with fish as bait. When struck with a dart, you must grab the dart and escape immediately, as they will charge you, and killing such an endangered species is illegal. As for stool samples, well... Once you find a pile, you will have plenty of sample to work with.

2. It's cold, to say the least. Too cold to continue forward. Whatever you were doing, you must stop and seek shelter. Looks like your goal is clear, at least. Get warm. Not finding a way to sustain heat, whether it be seeking shelter, building a fire, cuddling up, or all of the above, will likely end in serious consequences.
3. You are stuck in a dilemma. On one hand, you are set to work for Olympia. One the other, you're not completely sure what is really expected of you, or who the man who gave you this mission truly is.

You and your partner are meant to protect precious trade cargo for them. You were told that these were essential supplies for one of the outer colonies. They assured you it was mostly food. In loading the cargo onto the supplied wagon with your partner, however, you noticed something inherently off about it. The weight and even the sounds of some of the contents inside definitely don't sound like food.

Moreover, some boxes are more obviously more concealed— draped in black sheets and reinforced on all sides. You've also caught wind of rumors that you are potentially being utilized to supply advanced weapons and other contraband to Wyver terrorists in the colonies.

But what do you do? Refuse to make the delivery, and people in the colony will surely starve. Try to remove the weapons and only deliver the food, and you will be killed on sight for being too suspicious. Make the delivery as-is, and not only will Olympians die at the hands of terrorists in the future, but you will betray your country.

Decide quickly...

4. There are many dangers associated with traveling in such an isolated, harsh environment. You must help each other to survive. Perhaps someone has fallen on thin ice, and requires a rescue. Maybe someone is on the brink of starvation, and you must share what provisions you have.
When you come to, you will awaken in Thesa Station. All will be explained to you by Zasere or Sael via telepathic link. Your world is no more. The Storm has consumed it. We offer proof in the Observation Deck if you desire it, but it won't be an easy thing to stomach. We offer you a new life, in our planet of El Nysa. We just ask for your help in maintaining the vitality of El Nysa. What can we offer you in exchange for your help?
PROMPT: STASIS UNIT    


You have found the massive section of Thesa known as the Stasis Unit. There’s no special access required to access this part of Thesa Station, but refugees are warned that it may not be for the faint of heart. Here, in large pods that nearly cover every square inch of the space, are all of the people the Orbiters have managed to rescue. Your loved ones, your greatest enemy, your next door neighbor— you might find them here. These people are in a state of deep cryosleep. Due to the damaging effects of The Storm, their bodies are not yet ready to be awoken.

PROMPT: GET REKT    


The Orbiters have noticed that some of the refugees really miss their video games. The technology in El Nysa could be much worse, but it definitely leaves much to be desired. Which is why, after expressing relief that everyone awoke safely, the Orbiters have decided to provide a little fun in the form of video game competitions.

Anything from old-timey arcade machines to state-of-the-art computers, consoles, and VR headsets (though you may be a little tired of VR right now...) is available, and yes, they have your favorite games! Enjoy PAC-MAN, Starcraft 2, or perhaps Dance Dance Revolution! Teach a friend how to play. Get unnecessarily angry and competitive. Most importantly, have fun. Keep fourthwalling to a minimum, please.

Recommended playing: QWOP
PROMPT: OMAGE    
Upon receiving your mobile phone, you will be asked to set a username. Voila, you can now access the network! You can choose to send a message to the entire network, specific usernames, or you can try out the Orbiters’ service, Omage, which connects you to a random user. They thought this might be a good way for their new guests to make friends with each other...
Connecting to server...
Looking for someone you can chat with...
You’re now chatting with [username]... Say hi!
PROMPT: WILDCARD    
You are welcome to write any scenarios in Thesa Station! Characters have been granted temporary access to the Observation Room, and are encouraged to study it carefully.

FINAL OOC NOTE    
Please give toplevel priority to prospective characters! Current characters wishing to thread these scenarios with other current characters are encouraged to create separate logs. However, threads between 2 current characters are not eligible for Natha Orbiter REP.

These threads may be carried over as game canon if players choose! Players are encouraged to submit TDM threads as application samples, but they are not required. Please direct any OOC questions to the questions thread below! A TDM thread of AC length may be submitted HERE for 2 NATHA ORBITER REPUTATION POINTS. Current players may submit their thread at any time, and prospective players may submit a thread after acceptance.

Please note that threads must contain at least five (5) log comments from your character. A toplevel counts as a comment. Network threads are not eligible.

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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-09-24 07:01 pm (UTC)(link)
It really hadn't. He wants desperately to go back. Those people. They had needed so much help. There were innocent women and children in the freezing cold that were relying on him. It had felt so real to him. The entire thing sends him reeling to know that it was a simulation and that none of it had been real.

He holds his hand over his heart because it aches to know that he had been unable to help in the end. Unable to help someone that didn't even exist. He doesn't want to accept that. He wants to dig his heels in and be stubborn about it.

"It was. They were. They were real here." He thumps his chest. "It was real." He frowns a little. "And you. Who are you to tell me differently. You can't even show your face. You go by a number. I refuse to believe a stranger. What do you know! I think they are real. They are alive and they are somewhere. And I will find them and I will help them!"
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[personal profile] personalwar 2017-09-26 04:28 pm (UTC)(link)
For all that people had called Jack stubborn countless times over the years, he doesn't know if it compares to Reinhardt. He'd been bullied into retirement, and even then he hadn't been willing to set his hammer down and try to carry out the rest of his life in peace. Jack doubts that he'll rest until he no longer has any strength left in him. In that way, they're pretty similar.

The distrust is understandable, but he finds himself frustrated by it all the same. There's an easy way to give Reinhardt a wake-up call, but if he takes off his visor now it might be too much to dump on him when he's already dealing with a lot. He'll give it a little time.

"Follow me, I'll show you," he says, keeping his calm in the face of Reinhardt's insistence. He makes for the exit from the simulation room. The door slides open, and he waits for Reinhardt in the hallway. There's nothing here that resembles where they just were. It's all sleek, futuristic, a far cry from the snowy mountains they'd ventured to in the simulation.
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-09-30 08:47 pm (UTC)(link)
He wants to tell this stranger no. The he won't go. He wants to dig in his heels and demand that the stranger just send him back. Put him back where he was. But 76 is being so insistent and there's something so weirdly nostalgic about how easily he seems to handle Reinhardt's stubbornness. Like he's had to deal with the Crusader's pigheadedness more than once.

So when 76 goes to leave, Reinhardt follows. He follows because he has to. Standing in that room gives him no answers and doesn't get him any closer to getting back to the people who needed his help. If following this man gets him to that faster, he will. But he no longer trusts him. Reinhardt shifts so that when they walk, 76 is on his sighted side. He's sacrificing his safety from the unknown to keep an eye on the smaller man.

The hall looks so damn strange. His frown deepens as he takes it all in. "Where the hell am I?"
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[personal profile] personalwar 2017-10-03 04:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, he's had to deal with Reinhardt's pigheadedness many times. It's always a toss-up whether he finds it endearing or aggravating, and ultimately depends on his mood in the moment. Right now, it's a combination of the two, with concern thrown into the mix. Jack doubts that Reinhardt is going to take any of this news well, and there's a lot he's now been tasked with heaping onto him.

The hope is that the further away they get from the simulation, both physically and mentally, the more willing Reinhardt will be to let it go. There's a chance he could enter the simulation again, if he really wanted, but it wouldn't help anything. It's little more than an escape from the awful reality facing them, at this point.

"It's called Thesa Station," he says. He's noticed the way that Reinhardt has positioned himself next to him, and the lack of trust isn't exactly surprising. "As in, a space station." He's fully prepared to be met with disbelief, so he starts down the hall. "There's proof, since I'm not expecting you to just take me at my word."
Edited 2017-10-03 16:50 (UTC)
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-10-08 03:58 pm (UTC)(link)
"A space station..." Yeah. He's not going to buy it. Not for a second. Not until he sees the proof for himself. Easily done. Just a look out a window into the vast nothingness of space will be enough for him. And even then, he won't really want to believe it. But he won't run from. Reinhardt doesn't really run from much of anything.

"And why am I in a space station? Why would they take me here and make me believe things that aren't true? What sort of nefarious plans do that have for me? If this is some sort of trick to make me turn from my path, I won't fall for it."
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[personal profile] personalwar 2017-10-11 03:14 pm (UTC)(link)
The onslaught of questions has 76 sighing as he attempts to beat down his frustration with having to be the one to explain all of this. While it might not be all bad to see and interact with Reinhardt again, he didn't realize he'd been signing up to be the welcome committee. He knows that Reinhardt won't quit until he gets the answers he wants, so he may as well make it quick.

"A giant storm destroyed all of our worlds. The people in charge here recovered us in the aftermath, and you were in stasis until you'd healed enough that they could wake you up. Apparently they thought the simulation would help all of you regain consciousness." He shrugs, because it's not like it makes any more sense to him than it will to Reinhardt. But they hadn't had much choice, just like everything about this place.
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-10-15 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
76 probably should have told Reinhardt to sit down for that one. Because that's a hell of a lot to accept. In more than one way. Reinhardt has lost so much. Family. Friends. Comrads. His home. The war and the aftermath had taken everything from him. There were those who had died, three empty coffins and a huge castle of the dead. And for what?

He doesn't want to lose hope. Lose the only drive he has, but hearing that their world is gone and that so many had died for...nothing. That innocent people had been obliterated without any chance of helping them. It hurts and his hand goes to clutch his chest a little.

"How many?" His hand drops and he squares his shoulders like he's about to take up his shield. "How many did they save?"
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[personal profile] personalwar 2017-10-18 07:58 pm (UTC)(link)
It's not an easy thing for anyone to hear, let alone someone like Reinhardt who feels the pain of every death so intensely. 76 should have known better than to drop something like that on him without warning, and he has to fight back his irritation with the situation (along with the futility of their circumstances) and try to remember how to have a shred of compassion toward others.

"It's hard to say. There's a part of this station that houses all of the stasis pods. You can take a look there. It's massive." He could mention that he'd found Reinhardt there and had maybe even visited him a few times, but not quite yet. Even when Reinhardt knows who he is, he probably won't admit it.

They've reached the observation room, and 76 pauses for a moment outside of the door, glancing over his shoulder at Reinhardt's imposing presence. "Brace yourself," is all he says before the door slides open and he leads them inside. Before them is a large viewing window, allowing them to see the blackness of space outside. El Nysa takes up a good portion of the view, but beyond it there's still plenty to take in.
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-10-20 05:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Hard to say... Reinhardt hears that and his heart clenches even more. The hand at his chest trembles a little. Hard to say is not enough. Reinhardt is the sort of person who would have tried to save everyone. He knows he can't fault someone else for doing what they could, but he thinks that perhaps whatever pod he had been in could have been used for two or three. His jaw clenches and he looks away, trying to clear such a fatalistic thought from his head. He survived this long, there had to be a reason he survived this and had woken up.

But he had no cause right now. He had no one and nothing to fight for. He was again just an old man, with everything torn from him...again. He wants to go back. Go back to that fake world where he had a purpose. But he's a knight and knights didn't run away. He had to face this. Face this with a stranger whose voice sounds so damn familiar yet out of place at the same time.

So he braces and there is a vast empty nothing of space and that planet. His hand drops and he steps, one, two, he's at the glass and his hands press to it, framing the planet. He stares at it a long moment and his shoulders relax. Everything seems to click into place and he turns to give the stranger in the visor a smile. "Is that it? Is that the place were I am to be going? Do you think they need knights there?" Because 76 has just given him a new cause. Before him sits a whole world for him to help.
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[personal profile] personalwar 2017-10-23 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
The planet of El Nysa looks different from the blue one they had come to know so well, that had been their home for the entirely of their long lives. It still strikes 76 as foreign, even if he's been living on its surface for almost two months now. It will never be home to him, but he's had no other choice but to start to slowly set down roots there. Even then, that's only because he's had Ana at his side to push him in that direction.

He isn't entirely sure how Reinhardt is going to react to the view, and the silence is something that Jack finds uncomfortable, as he shifts his weight from one leg to the other and watches his old friend. The first time he'd looked through this glass, he hadn't handled it well, but Reinhardt always manages to surprise.

Do you think they need knights there, he asks, and Jack can't quite help the strained smile behind the mask. Some things never change.

"More than you'd guess. You'll see when you get down there." There's still a lot more to explain, but they're alone here now, and Jack knows that he needs to make his move. He lets out a breath. "There's... something else I need to show you first, though." Here it is, the moment he's been dreading, even if he's already gone through it with a few of the others. His stomach turns queasily all the same.
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-10-28 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
Reinhardt keeps his large palms pressed to the glass for a moment, just framing the strange planet that will be his home. He's lost his home so many times now that for him to pick up and start again. One more time. He surely has once more in him. And 76 says they need knights. This is all he needs. He'll find a way. He has no other choice. Just like before.

"I suppose I will see." He pushes away from the window and returns to looking at the other man. "Something else. I suppose I've come this far. You've not steered me wrong. So, I'll come with you again and see what you need me to see." He thinks it's another thing, like the planet.
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[personal profile] personalwar 2017-10-31 03:41 pm (UTC)(link)
76 shakes his head, because it's not that kind of showing. The more time that he takes, the more likely that someone is going to wander in on them, so he doesn't hesitate any longer. His hands lift up to either side of the visor, fingers pressing in to release the fasteners and allow the front plate to come off. Even though he's still got the base of it covering his neck and the sides of his face, it should be pretty clear who he is at this point.

Reinhardt will no doubt have a reaction to this, whether it's anger or relief or both, whether or not Jack says something. Yet it still seems like he should be able to find some words.

"I haven't been entirely honest with you, Reinhardt." Not during their short interaction here, or during the long years back home. Either way, it should be pretty clear now why he'd seemed so familiar.
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-11-06 07:14 am (UTC)(link)
Reinhardt is waiting to be taken somewhere. But then that visor comes off. That visor comes off and Reinhardt's world falls away in the fraction of a second. He had taken being on a space station well enough. He had taken the destruction of the world reasonably well. This...

Reinhardt can only stand there, staring. Staring and slack jawed. His hand clenches slowly at his side as his brain comes to terms with what his eye is showing him.

It's Jack.

Years older. More scars. Less hair. But still completely unmistakable.

Jack.

Jack is here. Jack, whose empty coffin he buried, whose eulogy he gave, whom he cried over bitterly alone where none of the surviving Overwatch could see him, was here standing in front of him.

His face crinkles in confusion. The last time he had seen Jack was when the man had signed off on his retirement papers and told him he had 24 hours to leave the Watchpoint. He hadn't been there. Hadn't been able to shield Jack when the Swiss Base exploded.

His failure is staring him right in the face.

Reinhardt's single eye fills with the tears he had sworn he had finished crying years ago. "Jack? That's...it's really you? You're alive?" He is trying to make sense of this. He struggles with it. "What year is it for you, Jack?" Because maybe...maybe these aliens had saved Jack from the explosion. Maybe it's still 2070 for Jack.
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[personal profile] personalwar 2017-11-09 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
There's a reason that Jack had never wanted to do this. There's a reason that he'd spent six years dodging anyone who might react like this. He can barely look at Reinhardt, he's not strong enough to watch as the truth dawns on him and he goes through the whole gamut of emotions in just a few seconds.

Jack definitely can't handle the fact that Reinhardt's tearing up, and that those tears can be heard in his voice -- betrayed, confused, wanting nothing more than for all of this to somehow make sense. Reinhardt asks what year it is for Jack because he so badly wants to believe that someone he considered a friend wouldn't have hid this from him for so long, but he's wrong.

Maybe this act of betrayal will be enough to make Reinhardt realize, once and for all, that there's not enough of Jack Morrison left to support anymore.

As much as he'd rather leave the room and find some hole to crawl into, Jack has to finish this now that he's started it. It's not going to get any easier, but it's not like he hasn't pushed through plenty of other painful endeavors in the past. This might be pretty high on the list, though.

His head tilts up to finally meet Reinhardt's gaze again. "It's 2076, Reinhardt. Same as it is for you."
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-11-13 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
Jack says the date and it's like the man punched him. He stumbles backwards just slightly. Nothing makes Reinhardt lose his footing. But now, it's like he's been pushed over. He stumbles back and he shakes his head. He doesn't want to believe it. He...

The sorrow and pain in his voice makes his words quiver with how much he's holding himself back. "The same as it is for me..." Then he's stepping back to his original spot and his hands are in shaking fists at his sides.

"It's 2075, Jack. Brigitte and I just routed out a bunch of gang members from a town suffering under them. Brigitte and I have been fighting. Keeping the promise. Keeping the oath. And you...and you..." What's he supposed to say to this? To the fact that Jack's been alive all this time.

He takes a step forward and another as he speaks until he is right in front of his old friend. But he doesn't punch, instead, he reaches out to try and grab the man into a hug. Grab him to sob in relief (and a little anger, let's be honest) against his shoulder. "You're alive. You're really alive. It's you. Gott, it's you." Because however betrayed and angry he feels, the fact is that Jack is alive. After losing all the people he has lost, just having one back is a miracle he doesn't deserve.
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[personal profile] personalwar 2017-11-17 10:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Everyone else's years have more or less matched up, at least as far as Jack is aware, so he hadn't even considered that Reinhardt might be a year behind him. Not that it makes a huge amount of difference, in the end. That's still five years that have gone by where Reinhardt believed that he and Gabriel were dead and buried.

Reinhardt's found his own way to keep fighting, one that doesn't involve hunting down conspiracies and committing acts of terrorism. He would never resort to something like that. It's good to hear that Torbjörn's oldest has been with him. At least he's had someone.

The outburst of emotions is bad enough, but when Reinhardt reaches out for him, Jack has no idea what to do. Reinhardt's hand settles heavily on his shoulder and Jack goes completely stiff, digging his heels in to prevent being dragged any closer to him. There's relief in Reinhardt's voice more than anything else. He's glad to see Jack, even if Jack isn't the same man he'd known for so many years.

He can picture the funeral footage in his mind's eye. Reinhardt standing before a large crowd, regal in his suit as he fought back tears and gave a eulogy. This man had suffered years of grief, but Jack had repeated the mantra to himself: it's better this way, it's better this way.

"Not just me," he says, the words blurted out as he searches for any way to take the attention off of him. Even if that means throwing Ana under the bus. She'd made it clear that she was willing to reveal her secrets to anyone else from Overwatch who might awaken. "Ana's here too." Ana survived too.
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-11-18 03:43 am (UTC)(link)
He had indeed found a way to keep fighting. However, it's not like he's not as much of a criminal as Jack is. He's not by any lengths a terrorist, but he is a vigilante. It's only because of the good graces of his country and his standing as an "immortal protector of Germany" that he gets away with what he does. The Petras Act would have him in prison just as quickly as Jack.

But he is not in prison. He's right here and Jack is here as well. Jack is here and Reinhardt can't stop crying. The tears just fall from his one good eye. The tears he had choked back when he had given that eulogy. A speech not about Morrison, the Hero, but Jack, the man. He had held them back then because the rest of them, the ones that survived, had needed someone to be strong.

Now, he doesn't have to be so. He can cry openly, aware of just how pathetic he must look, shaking hands on these bracing shoulders as one side of his face goes wet. He allows himself to do this though. How can he not.

And then the other shoe drops.

His hands go suddenly slack and then fall away. He steps back. One and then another, head shaking.

Ana... Her death had hit everyone so hard. It had been the domino that had started the inevitable fall. Just months after Ana's coffin had been put into the ground, they'd lost Jesse and Genji, both AWOL. He had been summarily kicked out. Not even a year later, Gabriel and Jack had fallen too. And it all started with Ana.

Ana...whom he had...

"She's really...alive?" He doesn't want to believe it, but Jack's right there, so why couldn't she also be here. And somehow that hurts even more. Reinhardt finds himself wishing Jack would have left him in the simulation. "Who else..." He knows he's being irrational. "Who else? Reyes? Lacroix? Next thing you'll tell me is that Balderich is growing old in Russia! And all this time. All. This. Time..."

He stops his backward motion, now more than two arms lengths away. "....Why Jack?"

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[personal profile] personalwar 2017-11-25 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
It's a cruel thing to use Ana as a way to take some of the attention off of him, and Jack knows that. Reinhardt had been just as close to her, after all. They'd all gone through the Crisis together, and her disappearance had been the catalyst for so much that had followed. He'd definitely started to splinter more without her there, his arguments with Reyes growing more and more heated until it had hit that boiling point.

When Reinhardt asks about Reyes, Jack goes tense, but he doesn't know if he can get into that right now. It's one thing to discuss Ana, who is here and who is still herself. Trying to explain what happened to Gabriel is a completely different issue, and he thinks that they've already gone through enough turmoil for one conversation.

It's selfish, but it's other people who had insisted that he was perfect and flawless, not him.

"I can't speak for Ana," he says with a shake of his head. "But I didn't know about her until recently, either." He doesn't know whether or not that will actually make Reinhardt feel better, but maybe it will help to know that he and Ana hadn't decided together to keep this from him.

"Overwatch was a mistake," he says, his own tone and expression remaining almost artificially neutral in comparison to Reinhardt's outpouring. "I didn't want anyone repeating it. So it was better if I just... stayed away."
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-11-26 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
It doesn't make it better. Nothing is going to make it better. He's too hurt by this. Too betrayed by it. Knowing that Jack had been in the dark doesn't make it hurt any less. He wishes his previous commander would just have punched him in the face. It would hurt less. "I...see." He's never felt this lost or defeated before. Never. And he can't even ask what he should do. He just has his heart to tell him what's right.

His heart that shatters just a little more when he's told that they had been a mistake. The organization that had wanted Balderich, that had become his family, that had done so much good...a mistake.

Anger flairs. "You know that's not true! What we were doing, it was good. Important! How many more people would have suffered and died if we hadn't been there! What we did. What it was. It wasn't a mistake! What we believed in, what we fought for, it wasn't a mistake. It wasn't then and it isn't now! I still believe in it, Jack." If he didn't, he'd likely had remained retired. But no, he had returned to act as the shield for all who needed it, where ever he went. A promise kept. "I still believe in the good that we did. I still believe in Overwatch." He pauses and takes a deep breath. He takes a breath and he lets all the hurt he feels go. Forgiveness is so much easier than anger. "I still believe in you."
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[personal profile] personalwar 2017-12-04 10:56 pm (UTC)(link)
The anger would be good if it were a different kind, but Jack can barely listen to what Reinhardt has to say. Overwatch did a lot of good, but it also hurt a lot of people in the process, and he doesn't think there's any way to really decide whether it was worth it or not. Maybe it was worth it to the world, but even that seems suspect when history so often repeats itself.

It doesn't feel like it was worth it to him, anymore. Not when his life fell apart around him and he lost everything. Not when one of his best friends is still lost to him, twisted into something horrible and angry.

Reinhardt's final words are the ones that seem to pierce right through him, though. If Jack weren't so tired, maybe he would have yelled back, told Reinhardt that he was idealistic to a fault and that he believed too much in things that were broken, and that one day it would be the death of him. But he can't seem to muster any of that up, much as he might try. Much as he knows it would be better if he broke this bridge for good and pushed Reinhardt away.

"There's nothing to believe in anymore," he says quietly, with a shake of his head. He runs a hand down his face, over his scars. "It's all gone, don't you get it?"
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-12-10 03:43 am (UTC)(link)
Jack wasn't the only one that lost everything. Reinhardt has lost just as much. The Crisis and everything after, it hadn't been kind to him. To any of them. But instead of letting it break him, letting it ruin him, he had taken those losses and decided that he could still do something good. Even if history repeats itself, Reinhardt will stand for what is good and right in the world. So long as people suffer and he has strength to stand for them, he will.

Even if it was broken. Even if it ended up breaking him in the process. As he had been told long ago, his legacy was his deeds.

Reinhardt's frown deepens. "I get that. I get that's it's all gone. Our world...everything and everyone in it, it's all gone. Nothing can be done to change that." He sounds so hurt by that notion too. How many hadn't he been able to save? "But that doesn't mean that what we stood for is gone. Protecting the people, helping the helpless, saving those in need, these are things that don't change. Justice and the good we do, it follows after us. And even if there is only one man who still believes, that is one man more than zero. So when I go down there, know that I will keep right on doing that. And know that if you need me, I will don my armor to help you." Because like it or not, Jack, Reinhardt has already decided, and he's decided to have your back and believe.
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[personal profile] personalwar 2017-12-14 05:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Protecting the people, helping the helpless, saving those in need... when's the last time that Jack did any of that? His efforts to fix the world had ultimately failed, and now all he cares about is finding the people responsible and making them pay. Not that it's really possible anymore, with the entire world gone and most of its inhabitants either dead or in stasis. He and Ana have been doing their best to keep pressing forward even so, but the lack of purpose wears on him.

He isn't ready to go back to trying to save the world like Reinhardt is suggesting, either. He's not Jack Morrison anymore, but a washed-out relic who'd rather focus on digging up the secrets that this world must also have.

"No one's going to stop you from doing that," he says with a shake of his head, before moving back to the viewing window where El Nysa hangs in the blackness below them. "I'm sure you'll find plenty of people who need your help." In a way, Jack is envious of Reinhardt. Once he's settled and has people to protect, he'll be content, or at least feel fulfilled by what he's doing. Jack, on the other hand, doesn't think he'll ever be able to fill in the hole that Overwatch left in him. It had been a part of him, and so that part of him had died along with it. Not that he really knows how to put any of that into words.
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2017-12-24 01:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Overwatch had indeed been a part of Reinhardt as well. He hadn't started it like Jack had. It hadn't been his baby. He had been the wrong Crusader that they'd made due with. But it had been his in the end. It had been his home. It had been his family. It had been everything to him. After he lost the Crusaders, it became his world. When he had been cruelly turned away from it, it had killed him inside. To have to stand by and watch from the outside as the only thing in the world he had broke and crumbled, unable to do anything about it, it had hurt even more. Burying empty coffins for men so burned up that not even their bodies could be found...

He had put his armor on again because he had nothing else in the world. He didn't have conspiracies to chase. He didn't have deeper secrets to uncover. All he had was a promise to a dying man. He would keep that promise. No matter how much it hurt him. No matter how much he suffered because of it. It's all he had left.

"I hope they won't. But I want you to know something Jack..." He turns to face the man, face seriously. "Know that no matter what, I will help you as well." He not only forgives this man for the lying and the hiding, but he's more than ready to jump in the line of fire for him. "My shield is yours." Even if he didn't have his armor, something at the moment, he's still unsure came with him, he would find a way to watch this man's back when he needed it. Somehow. It's not like they have an active comm system anymore.
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[personal profile] personalwar 2018-01-03 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
There's a time when a wound is too distracting for a person to focus on anything else. In Jack's case, it's a wound that's been nursed over the past six years, but it certainly hasn't healed. Of course Reinhardt had been deeply affected by Overwatch's fall, but Jack's vision is clouded by his own situation. It feels to him like everyone else has moved on with their lives (as they should), but he'll always be haunted by the past. It's all he has left.

Jack had figured even Reinhardt would need some time to be angry with him, a few days to work through the shock and the sense of betrayal. Instead, he's already pledging himself, offering his shield like there isn't this huge chasm between them.

Maybe Reinhardt knows how to cross it, but Jack's at a complete loss.

He stares up at his old friend with a tired gaze, searching for words that left him a long time ago. For so many years, he'd been good at offering the right response to everything. Now it's all turned to ash in his throat.

"I'm pretty sure there are other people more in need of your shield than me," he eventually replies.
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[personal profile] panzersoldat 2018-01-14 08:37 am (UTC)(link)
It's likely the one thing they might never talk about. The painful fact that for both of them, they were chasing after the only things they really had left. All Reinhardt has is his armor and his promise. All Jack has is his bitterness. But Reinhardt won't let Jack just have that anymore. He has a friend now. An ally, even if it drives him crazy, Reinhardt is going to be there for him whenever he can.

It's all he has. Because if he get angry at Jack, he knows he'll never stop being angry. He'll never stop being hurt and betrayed by this. It's not a way that Reinhardt wants to live. Instead he sees that tired gaze and reaches out. Reaches to give the man he once called his commander a squeeze on the shoulder.

"That may well be true, but you are my friend Jack. And that still means something to me. So just remember that. Just remember that and once I'm down there, I promise I won't forget you." He really does mean that.

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